| I'm 21 |
[Jan. 21st, 2007|07:49 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | Gym Class Heroes- "Shoot Down the Stars" | ] |
So i am finally 21. It feels good. I can go into a bar and buy a beer. And this is the end of life as i know it.
"Shoot Down The Stars"
'81 was the year shit hit the fan in a major way
I sat there for an inspiring artist
Almost 20 years after the fact I'm still on my hustle
Diggin' graves for an inspiring artist
Pushing daises up
And never compromise the arts and make a crowd clap
Shit on since the first show
But we turned feces to fertilizer
So when you diss it's just food for the flowers to grow
Sold 15 plus out of backpacks, no trunks
Too young to drive
But live hip hop
And the kids are upstate kids that thought rap was past tense, hence the last name
Got name for playing basements and such and making songs that our friends loved
And when the fish bowl got too small to hold the goldfish
We filled our gills with water and ripped that mother fucker like
So take a step back
And a breath in
Let it out now
Put your chin up
You can do it tiger
You a man now
And in your dream it's time to do the best you can now
So break ourselves down
And build ourselves up in disappointment
How fragile we are
So fragile we are, we just don't show it
Shake up this town
And shoot down the stars for our enjoyment
So sexy we are
So sexy we are, we just don't know it
This is what you wanted right?
How many nights were spent pouring out your guts dummy?
How many punishments endured for fucking up in school?
How many teachers proved wrong by writing songs instead?
My point exactly
But you knew you had a spark, did you?
Something producin' to the dreams your pop's dreams lent you
Stay focused when nothing seemed to make sense
Stealing verses with that Cassius Clay confidence
Sometimes you stubborn as shit, that's the McCoy in you
You learn to be a man without losing the boy in you
Just do your thing man
So take a step back
And a breath in
Let it out now
Put your chin up
You can do it tiger
You a man now
And in your dream it's time to do the best you can now
So take a step back
And a breath in
Let it out now
Put your chin up
You can do it tiger
You a man now
And in your dream it's time to do the best you can now
So break ourselves down
And build ourselves up in disappointment
How fragile we are
So fragile we are, we just don't show it
Shake up this town
And shoot down the stars for our enjoyment
So sexy we are
So sexy we are, we just don't know it
We break ourselves down
And build ourselves up in disappointment
How fragile we are
So fragile we are, we just don't show it
We shake up this town
And shoot down the stars for our enjoyment
So sexy we are
So sexy we are, we just don't know it
So take a step back
And a breath in
Let it out now
Put your chin up
You can do it tiger
You a man now
And in your dream it's time to do the best you can now
So break ourselves down
And build ourselves up in disappointment
How fragile we are
So fragile we are, we just don't show it
Shake up this town
And shoot down the stars for our enjoyment
So sexy we are
So sexy we are, we just don't know it |
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| A Great Man |
[Dec. 16th, 2006|11:37 am] |
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R.I.P. Jake Breast. he was a great man, and we all loved him very much. |
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| I love screwing with people |
[Dec. 7th, 2006|02:09 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | apartment | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | music |
| | South Park | ] |
So i am walking out of a head shop today, and standing right out side, are 2 guys dressed in suits. as it turns out, the are mormans from the church of latter-day saints. They ask me if i would like to hear the message of salvation. I love these types of guys. They had just been saved, put through training, and here they are, on the streets like a couple of cheap hookers. I was actually able to get them to question the church. It's too easy. Don't get me wrong, im not trying to keep them from believing in God and Jesus, that was the farthest thing from my mind. It just shows that people are easily persuaded. Why should they be constrained to one church, one set of beliefs. We should be able to read and think for ourselves. I don't know where im going with this, so ill just shut up. But i will say this, know what you belief, and follow it, don't follow people. |
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| Here in your arms |
[Dec. 3rd, 2006|01:28 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Apartment | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Hellogoodbye- Here in Your Arms | ] |
"Here In Your Arms"
I like where we are,
When we drive, in your car
I like where we are.... Here
Cause our lips, can touch
And our cheeks, can brush
Our lips can touch here
Well, you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whisper's "Hello, I miss you quite terribly"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms
I like where you sleep,
When you sleep, next to me.
I like where you sleep... here
Our lips, can touch
And our cheeks, can brush
Our lips can touch here
Well, you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whisper's "Hello, I miss you quite terribly"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms
Our lips, can touch
Our lips, can touch...here
You are the one the one that lies close to me
Whisper's "Hello, I miss you quite terribly"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your
You are the one the one that lies close to me
Whisper's hello I miss you, I miss you
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms
Here in your arms.
Here in your arms. |
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| No more |
[Nov. 29th, 2006|11:47 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  energetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Spill Canvas: Self-Conclusion | ] |
Ok, so i've made up my mind. No more bad moods, no more depression. I have come to realize that only i can choose how to be and act. I can't keep leaning on other people to help me. Im just going through a hard time. It sucks to go home to my apartment at night, and have no one there. I think it just give me way too much time to think. I think about life and things of the nature, and i start to get depressed. but i shouldn't be depressed. I have everything i dreamed of. I found my calling (which by the way, is going great, i have straight A's, and im actually working hard for once in my life), I have a beautiful fiancee (who i love more than anything in the whole world, and i know that she loves me just as much, if not more. She makes me feel like im accomplishing somthing for myself). Im getting my life on track, which i found isn't as easy as you think its going to be. I have no reason to be depressed. So this is my offical statement-"No more". And to everyone who reads this, i want you to keep me accountable. If you hear me complain, or get down at myself, smack me, yell at me, do whatever you have to do. thats what friends do for each other. |
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| Big News!!! |
[Nov. 9th, 2006|04:10 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | apartment | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | excited | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Bob Marley- Could you be loved | ] |
So here is the big news, if you haven't heard already. damn, word travels fast. Ashley and i are now engaged!!! This is something i have dreamed about for a long time, and im so happy that i have finally found someone that can stand me enough to marry me. haha. She is the greatest thing to happen to me since i ran with the jews. I don't know what i will do without her. So we have somewhat set a date, maybe the middle of July, 08. More details will come as we figure them out. I want to thank everyone for being so supportive, from me moving away, to helping with the engagement. I don't know what i would do without my friends. It is starting to get lonley up here, i think im losing my mind. i miss everyone. keep partying in my honor, cause thats how i would want it. well, im done rambling now, so quit reading and get on with your lives. |
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| fun |
[Oct. 15th, 2006|02:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bored | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Pepper-Crazy Love | ] |
So here i am, sitting in my apartment alone, watching the eagles game. nothing better. i was just complaining about being sober, and now i have to take a drug test for my new job. isn't it ironic, don't you think? Get this, the new job is running the rock climing wall at the mall of america. i don't understand why they drug test. it might be the fact that little kids lives are in my hands. im gonna try not to kill anyone. thats a lot of pressure on a stoner and an alcoholic. haha. ill try my best. I really miss my crew, Lauren and kyle, steph and lou, Benny and his wierd ways (haha), but i miss Ashley most of all. i can't wait until you come up here and see me. that is all for today. |
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| being sober sucks |
[Oct. 10th, 2006|10:08 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  cranky | ] |
| [ | music |
| | David Bowie-Ziggy Stardust | ] |
I just want to say that i am sick of being sober. my mom is leaving tommorrow, and i will have the apartment to myself. its about time. i can't take it anymore. i need to feed my addictions!!! All of you should never take your freedom to party for granted. |
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| how's it goin? |
[Oct. 5th, 2006|08:14 pm] |
ok, so here is my quarterly update on this machine with numbers and letters that is glowing at me. How is it doing that? anyway, things are incredible, on any level that you can think of. ill start with school. The below freezing temperatures here in sunny Minnesota haven't come yet, give it another couple hours. I won't be able to have kids, cause my ball will be so frozen and resembling 2 raisins. i guess that it is just a sacrifice for my goals. in case you haven't heard, i got a scholorship to a flim school in MN, so here i am. My apartment is really nice, quiet and homey, just how i like it. No distractions, no worries. I started classes this week, and already i have full access to the studio's in the school. Anyone want to fund a movie?
The past month has been a rollercoaster that i can't say that i really enjoyed. I went back to Florida, and found out that my life wasn't where i left it. So many things went wrong. But what can you do? You just have to get back on the horse, shove a snake up it's ass, and hope that it keep going. As far as my horse, it is back up and riding smooth. Im not going to talk about why i got thrown a curveball, but i will say that i know who my friends are and arn't. To all those people who stood next to me, I really appreciate, and you know that if you ever needed a kidney or a finger, whats mine is yours. To everyone else, well i have to give you a big FUCK YOU!!! Damn that feels good
Finally, I just want to say that i am in love. i thought i knew what it was like, but i was wrong. When you meet someone that just makes you stop and say"oh shit, she is the one", i think that you should hold on to her for as long as you can. I remember when Ash and i first started dating, she told me that she wasn't in this to screw around, she was looking for the real deal. At that point, i was praying inside that i could live up to being just that. I think i have done ok. But the important thing is that i know, no matter what anyone says, that she is the only thing i care about. it is scary, because every decision i make now is not for me, but for us. I love you baby, more than words can describe. this past month has shown that to me. Nothing can keep us apart, not even 2,000 miles.
and with that i leave you with a song.
Oh, it is love
From the first time I set my eyes upon yours
Thinking, "Oh, is it love?"
Oh, dear
It's been hardly a moment
And you are already missed
There is still a bit of your skin
That I've yet to have kissed
Oh say, please do not go
When you know, oh you know that I must
Oh say, I love you so
You know you, oh know you can trust
We'll be holding hands once again
All our broken plans I will mend
I will hold you tight so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my hand into yours
Thinking, "Oh, is it love?"
Oh dear, its been hardly three days
And I long to feel your embrace
There are several days
Until I can see your sweet face
Oh say, wouldn't you like to be older and married with me?
Oh say, wouldn't it be nice to know right now that we'll be
Someday holding hands in the end
All our broken plans will have been
I will kiss you soft so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking, "Oh, is it love?"
Oh, your heart may long for love that is more new
So when I'm gone these words will be here
To ease every fear
And dry up every tear
And make it very clear
I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I set my lips against yours
Thinking, "Oh, is it love?"
Oh it is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking, "Oh, is it love?"
Oh I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my lips against yours
Thinking, "Oh, is it love?" |
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| Me vs. My Conscious |
[Nov. 12th, 2005|04:36 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | artistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Donovan F. | ] |
holy shit, i always forget about my live journal until i have something important to say or do, so im sorry for the lack of updates. here is my sad story of the month.
-my conscious
So, honestly, how long does it take to get over someone that means so much? And why can't you just give it up? Are you scared that you won't find anyone else?
-Me
I try to deal with it, I really do. I think im doing pretty good, don't you?
-My conscious
Why do you move with such light feet, as if you are afraid to step on toes? Is there a point to what you feel and do, or is life really just what you know?
-Me
I avoid confrontation, and don't know why. Is it because i want to be nice to everyone before i die?
-My conscious
You know that you try to make sense of everything, only to fall down while trying to show how you are right. You let yourself down, and it can be controlled, if you would just take charge of your life.
-Me
I see what you mean, and it has to stop. i will no longer just sit on the side of the stage, letting the ball drop. No more bullshit, i swear.
I CAN'T WAIT AROUND FOREVER!!! |
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| Much Better Times |
[Apr. 20th, 2005|02:14 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | energetic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Say Anything - Every Man has a Molly | ] |
things are really starting to go well for me. i am totally stoked for the first time this semester. i realized who my friends were, and im cool with that. i just woke up, and since its 4/20, NORML is having a BBQ on the lawns outside of our dorm. the food smells so good. man im hungry. anyway, i got to see greenday last Friday, and i have to say, i was very impressed. i was pissed by the lack of old songs they chose to play. the only ones they did was: Longview, Basket Case, Brainstew and Jaded, King for a Day, and Good Ridience. But their new songs are better than i thought, not to bad. im going to see the guys from the anchorite four tonight. i am so stoked. turns out that the A4 broke up, but are in a new band called A Soft Perversion, with 2 other guys from Dreams Die First. i miss marc's crazy drumming, and patricks funky dance. it will be a good show, because the other bands are Hands Free Method, Madyln, and Copesetic. oh i forgot that kyle from courtsey of you will be doing an acoustic set. good stuff. until next time, peace out.
P.S. Mandy and Lauren, thank you for taking me with you to greenday, and for all the free stuff i got while we were there. |
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| Never quit, unless you know that you have been defeated!!! |
[Apr. 14th, 2005|12:17 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Atreyu - Lip Gloss and Black | ] |
I have heard the statement "never give up" many times before. i just want to explain why this is a dumbass statement. what do you do when yu find something that you want so bad? when you have never had to embark on an adventure for it? do you push and push, or just stand back and try to let everything fall into place? i still don't know the answer to these questions. everything that i have ever had has been handed to me on a silver platter. i doesn't matter what it was, i just had everything i wanted. now i know what it feels like not to get that one thing that you want more than ever. i would have given up everything that i had, just for this one thing. I discovered the outcome, and even if i don't like it, i know i have to agree with it. i don't want to lose a friend that has been nothing but nice and great to me. so this is my surrender. i give up, and the topic that i haven't even given an explanation to will never be brought up again. because a friendship is more important than anything else. if you know who this is about, i ask to keep it to yourself. i have always kept my feelings and my emotions in a tight bottle, that i keep in my back pocket. i don't believe in wearing your heart on your sleeve. i wish i could take back alll the time that i spent trying to impress her, and instead just be myself, because i missed out on so much more. if anyone ever feels like talking about anything, give me a call. 239-273-7113. so thats it, i give up, and i am happy with a friendship. i am sorry if i made things weird, i didn't mean to. |
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| crazy times |
[Apr. 9th, 2005|03:54 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Muse: Hysteria | ] |
Alot has happened since i last updated, so i will spare all the details. i got to go to the D.R. for spring break, and what happens in D.R stays in D.R. all i can say is that it is an amazing country, and i hate how apathetic and greedy we have become. they had nothing and were happy, yet we have more than everything, only to complain that it isn't enough.
I got to go to a lot of show in the past 2 months. this is who i saw: Armor for Sleep, Strung Out, Evergreen Terrece, Muse, Razorlight, Atreyu, NORMA JEAN!!!, Unearth, Say Anything, PEPPER!!!, opm, Authority Zero, and there were more, but i can't remember. Thanks to the Helo Monster for driving his lazy butt over here for the Atreyu show. good times.
Now for the band that i am about to see: My Chemical Romance and Greenday, Unwritten Law, Hawthorne Hights, Sum 41, Jack Johnson, Dave Matthews Band, and the Warped Tour and Cornerstone Festival. my days are packed with amazing bands. i can't wait.
i have something that i wish to share, but it must remain disclosed until I discover the outcome. it will either make my life, or be a major heartbreak. i hope it isn't the latter. updates and explainations to come.
Until i write again, Peace Out |
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| wisdom teeth and drugs |
[Jan. 23rd, 2005|09:04 pm] |
hey whats up, this weekend i got my wisdom teeth extracted. it really sucks. i got an IV sedation, which put me under for about an hour, and i don't remember the next 3 hours after that. then for the rest of the weekend i was drugged up on percaset. i love drugs. jk.
anyway, my mom came over to the campus to help take care of me. we got a hotel room in deerfield beach, and i slept for 2 days straight. not i can't even eat any real food. i have lived off a diet of jello, pudding, and applesauce, and i have lost 6 pounds in 3 days. this is my new diet. screw the south beach, i call it the wisdom tooth diet. try it, its great.
in other news, i have my first math test on tuesday, and i hate math. i hope i do good, because i need. i can't wait for the week to end, because this friday is lauren's pimps and hoes party. i want to be a ho, but i think for everyone else's sake, i should be a pimp. just being considerate.
i also booked my spring break ticket. we are going to the Dominican Republic, and the hotel is all-inclusive. that will be a great trip. the day after i booked my flight, the price of the ticket went up $400. wow. i got lucky.
well i will see you on the flip side. peace out |
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| mixed feelings |
[Jan. 18th, 2005|11:33 pm] |
hey whats up, this is my first entry. i know, i am really late on this whole thing, but i hope to catch up. this weekend was really cool and really shitty at the same time. it was my birthday on MLK Day, so that was cool. all my roomates and friends wanted to throw a party, but i felt sick that night, so i hung out for a little bit, then went to bed. sorry to all for that, and thank you for showing that you care. that was cool, plus i got to party with a bunch a bunch of my friends on friday. it was good.
on the down side, i just want to say that i am the biggest pussy on campus. why you ask? well i will not give too many details, but i finally found a girl that i really liked, wasn't able to take action on it, and now it looks like it will be to late now. oh well, i guess that you just have to move on with your life. shit happens!!- Uncle Billy
on the good side and downside, the surf is starting to pick up, but it is cold as hell. it feels like New Jersey in December. this sucks.
so that is all i have to say right now. peace out |
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